Even though I have lost 164lbs and I am at my doctor’s goal weight…
Even though I have been doing crossfit 4-5 days a week for almost 2 years and eat a very clean diet (90% of the time)…
This is what my body looks like (almost) naked
Because of this I try very hard to stay focused on fitness goals as my measure of success rather than my appearance, or the number on the scale, or the size of my jeans, but sometimes, just sometimes, I forget…
I am extremely passionate about sharing my story and the lessons I’ve learned in hopes of inspiring others to live their own I’mperfect Life!
Just a heads up, for those new to seeing this post…This was written in May 2014 and while I’m still on the same journey the path has changed multiple times since then– I experienced a few injuries that caused fitness related setbacks, a few family emergencies, a pregnancy, a miscarriage and a subsequent 20lbs weight gain.
I share it all here on my blog and I hope you’ll take time to look around for further inspiration. You can also join my mailing list to get my Quick Start Guide for Creating a Healthy Lifestyle and updates on my ongoing adventures as well as notifications of upcoming I’mperfect Life events.
Thank you for taking the time to read and share. I can’t tell you how much the response to this post touches my heart, making me want to do more and be better. <3 On to the post…
MAY 16, 2014
A few weeks ago I did just that…I forgot. I was faced with a “Look Good Naked Challenge” at my gym that I knew I had no chance in hell of winning. I remembered that summer was just around the corner and realized that I would go a 25th year wearing shorts over my bathing to hide the legs I’ve hated since I was 11. I tried on a jean skirt that I wanted so bad only to see my misshapen knees that have kept me from wearing anything above them throughout all of my adult years, and out of nowhere it hit me like a ton of bricks…I felt frustrated, discouraged and sad. Like really, really sad. I even cried a little. I felt like all the hard work that I’d been doing wasn’t paying off and it made me want to give up.
I spent a good week or so feeling sorry for myself, getting caught up in the vanity of it all. I didn’t work as hard at the gym, I didn’t eat as well as I usually do and every time I looked in the mirror I felt worse than I had the time before.
I can’t recall if there was something specific that got me to pull my head out of my ass, but fortunately something did. (could have just been the end of my period…fricken hormones!) Regardless of what it was, I decided that it was time to REALLY celebrate what my ugly body CAN DO rather than focus on what it looks like…or doesn’t look like. So I asked my friend Emily, the amazing photographer at Southern Star Photography, to take some pictures of me DOING the THINGS I have NEVER, EVER…EVER in my entire life…not even as a kid (with the exception of the cartwheel) have been able to do until now.
So here you go! Today I am celebrating what my body is capable of doing because of the lifestyle changes that I’ve made and the hard work I’ve done in and out of the gym.
I am PROUD of my ugly body because…
ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS (no strings attached!)
CAN DO A CARTWHEEL A GRACEFUL AS ANY (NOVICE) GYMNAST
THESE SADDLEBAGS, STRETCH MARKS AND CELLULITE
CAN’T STOP ME FROM BEING SUPER FLEXIBLE
THAT LOOSE UNDERARM SKIN
DOESN’T MEAN I CAN’T CLIMB THIS THING
THE REMAINING FAT ALL OVER MY BODY
DOESN’T MEAN I’M NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO FLIP A FLIPPIN TIRE
MY FLABBY TUMMY
HAS THE CORE STRENGTH THAT ALLOWS ME TO ACT LIKE KID
THESE PUDGY LEGS
PROVIDE ME WITH ENOUGH STRENGTH AND STABILITY TO DO A ONE LEGGED SQUAT (with great amounts of concentration!)
AND THIS…ALL OF THIS
WOULDN’T KEEP ME FROM LOOKING STRONG AND SEXY…
IF I LIVED ON THE MOON
Besides, I still look cute in a pair of jeans…
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY
NO MATTER HOW UNCOMFORTABLE I AM DISPLAYING MY BODY DURING THE SUMMER MONTHS…
I NEVER, EVER WANT TO BE AS UNCOMFORTABLE AS I WAS IN THIS BODY 365 DAYS A YEAR
How about you? Do you feel good about your body? I hope so!
Let’s celebrate together! Do this…
Grab a picture of yourself doing something that makes you feel PROUD then…
Post it to the I’mperfect Life Facebook Page
Tweet it to me @imperfectlife2
Tag me on Instagram @imperfectlife2
Use the hashtags #ilovemybody #imperfectlife so I can celebrate WITH YOU!
I can’t wait to see what makes YOU proud!
PLEASE SHARE THIS POST WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW WHO COULD USE A LITTLE CELEBRATION TOO!
PS: If you have ever, even for only one second, measured yourself against pictures I’ve posted, assuming that I looked like an athlete under my compression wear and wondered why you didn’t look the same, I hope that this post assures you that just like the scale, pictures don’t provide the whole truth either. Although I try to be as honest as possible in my photos and posts, it’s hard to find balance between the truth and what sounds like self-deprecation–which is something I avoid. Regardless of how ugly my body is under my clothes, it is STRONG and it’s getting stronger every day. I am proud of my accomplishments and look forward to continued improvement. While I toy with the idea of plastic surgery, the thought of taking time off from doing the things I love like Crossfit and races and LIFE in order to recover appeals to me far less than my reflection in the mirror. So for now, I am just going to keep on doing what I’m doing– eating right, working out and embracing my I’mperfect Life.
And THANK YOU to Emily at Southern Star Photography for reminding me that I am beautiful and strong!
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My heart is full of joy.